Sunday, May 30, 2004 .

more than half the time, i start my entries with a heavy heart.

this time is no different.

sure, it's book-in day.
but i'm not depressed about that.
screw it man.

i checked my SAT score.
took me hell of a time trying to find it.
honestly, i hoped it would be 1350 at least.
and i thought it was going to be.
but i got 1260.
it's damn sad.

i had that little hope of getting in SMU and now that my scores are so fucked up,
they're sure to tell me to fuck off like how NUS did.

screw man.
sure i can try again next year...but what's the bloody use man.
maybe i'll just stick to my parents' plan and go to Canada for a while.
it'll be a good experience i hope. but i'd much rather stay here.
i'd kill to stay here.
i dunno.

fuck it.
sucks when people start talking about Uni entries and all that shit.
makes me wonder where i fit in.
alot of my friends got into Building & Real Estate.
it's not that bad a place.
the reason why FASS is so packed is b'cos science fucks decided to throw themselves in our pool.
bastards.
shouldnt they dump themselves in Engineering or sumthing?

argh. fuckers.

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my friend from OCS said sumthing that day.
he said "i hate 2 types of people......i hate racist......*pause*.......and i hate Malays"
it was meant to be a joke. never mind.

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this is the time of my life when i feel like a loser.
this is the time when i really really wish i could go back to J1.
and i'll correct most of the stupid things i've done.
and i'll do my freaking tutorials.

gonna eat dumpling now.


screaming infidelity at 9:20 AM
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