Saturday, August 21, 2004 .

flying off to brunei soon.
i hate typing the name of that country.
it kinda sucks.

was at alden's place just now.
havent seen him and yoda in a while.
it's quite a pity i had to leave early.

it's a pity i have to leave the country.
going to a far far away place isnt a nice feeling.
feels almost as bad, if not worse than when i first enlisted.
shit.
im telling myself it's not that bad.
i have friends going with me right?
it's not gonna be tough right?
why should i be worried?
i wish i knew actually.
save me all the anxiety.

"Cannonball"
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry

So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

quite like that song.
no particular reason.

was talking to yoda on the way home.
i said sumthing like : it's weird when you're outfield. you start thinking about people you dun usually think about, about things you dun usually think about. it's surreal.
only then did it kinda make sense.
you think about the things you miss most.
truly miss most.
that's what i think.

i hate sinking into depression.
it shows on my face.
then people ask if im ok...and i dunno...

shouldnt talk to much now.
cya guys soon.

i'd be so so glad to be back in s'pore.
i swear.

(sorry i cant bring back any stones from brunei...haha...they say it's not superstitiously safe,
but maybe i could catch some pink butterflies.)


screaming infidelity at 9:45 PM
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