Sunday, August 01, 2004 .

ok....
so finally, i get some time to myself.
just came back home from a really long week.

tiring. amount of time spent sleeping was pathetic.

anyhow, it's good to be home.
my sis just turned 18 yesterday.
it's a real pity i wasnt around.

her birthday cake is still in the fridge.
still not cut, no sign of candles.

birthdays are really funny things.
you're suppose to feel special right? but i dunno. i never really felt a need for them.
i never really liked birthdays. mine and others.
maybe im just confused...
straighten it out later.

was eating a banana when i was at fieldcamp.
part of the banana was like over riped...so it was abit too soft and squishy (if you know what i mean)
it's like...ripe is good. over ripe is not.
growing up is good, growing old is not. but seriously...what's the diff right?

we're technically dying everday, bit by bit, little by little.
the continuation of life depends of death.
just like the ripening of fruits.
it's actually decomposition right?
in less tactful terms...it's like rotting right?

half rotten fruit is good.






so, i knew this time would come.
the time when i had to miss people again.
miss the times i had.
it's heart wrenching.

i love my platoon.
well...most of it. like 90% of it.
it sucks that we have to be seperated.

i hate being seperated from things i like.
it sucks.

im gonna sleep now or sumthing.

screaming infidelity at 9:10 AM
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