Sunday, September 19, 2004 .

yesterday was weird.

at 2pm, i was down at Hilton checking out the place to see if it's a good place for the commissioning ball.
well...my friend and i like it.
everything's good...waived the corkage, willing to let us us the entire hall even though we have less than the optimal number of people, and the menu is great.

anyway...i was late for the Hilton appointment so by the time i got there, my friend had already done most of the surveying. i was just there to show my face.

by 3pm i was alone at Borders.
dont ask me why, but i spent 4plus hours alone at borders reading.
it's weird.
like really weird.
waited for my sis to come meet me for dinner....

usually i would "fully utilize" my weekends.
meet up with people and stuff.
but yesterday, it felt good just sitting there reading on my own.

met my sis for dinner.
then she met her friends so that they could go zouk.
this new girl she's hanging out with is really, in my opinion, cute.
but her boyfriend's a dick.
i went home afer buying a book.
then while i was at home (well technically i was in dad's car getting ready to drive it to JY's place) my sis called to ask me to go down to zouk cos she was sure "i'd have a good time, and i'd probably regret if i din go".
she's right...i'd probably regret if i din go. but i didnt have that good a time.
the people were nice....really.
my sister's friends go out of the way to make you feel comfortable.
plus, they're members at zouk so i get to enjoy the perks too.
that's besides the point.
nice people, nice place, pretty good crowd, but i wasnt having the time of my life.
i dont quite know why.

--takes a break for breakfast--

mum made pancakes with ice-cream.
lovely.

the trip to zouk was just very surreal.
like i wasnt even physically there.
weird.
my head still hurts so im pretty sure it wasnt a dream.

my life needs some sorting out.
really..
need to draw some lines, set some things straight, list priorities.

for me, as a start, there's a really good reason to quit smoking.
mum just made me promise cos she suspects i smoke alot.
not that she even knew in the first place...
but i guess parents can do super-hero things like that.

today will be another weird day if im not wrong.
just hafta wait and see.



screaming infidelity at 9:53 AM
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