Sunday, November 14, 2004 .

about the phones

alright.
how do you make the words "indecisive" "fickle" "easily influenced" or "no freaking mind of his own" sound less degrading than it really is?
cos i honestly dont know.

if you know me well enough, or hang out with me often enough, you know that this happens alot.
i cant make up my mind.
i cant decide on anything.
hardly anything.

recently there's been an issue of me getting a phone.
it's silly, cos i mean buying a phone isnt that big of a deal right?
and it doesnt take that much consideration right?
oh yes...for Clement Tan it is.

it took me 2weeks to find out which phone i wanted, and then i realised that i wanted sumthing else.
but really. you can't blame me.
my sis's got a cool phone which she barely deserves, and my parents (dont you LOVE those people?) payed for her even though she's working.

okay...so i earn my wage too, but at the sound of me buying myself a fancy phone, they go nuts and say that i might as well return them the money i owe them from driving lessons.
wait....did they just offer to pay my sister's way through driving?

so back to me and not being able to decide.
i cant decide between this ordinary phone, this fancy phone my sister got and not buying at all.
and JY took all of 2hours to decide what he wanted.
tell me again...why did they put me in OCS?
cos i cant figure out why at the moment.

i hate myself for being like this.
simply because it happens all the time.

my friend told me that i should always "go for the girl i like, even though she's poor, than go for a rich girl that i dont like."
he means that i shouldnt let my concern with money get in the way of my judgement of things that really matter - in this case, happiness.

it's a pity that i'm seldom left in a situation where i have the liberty of choosing.
mum and dad wont even let me choose the poor girl.
cos money is just too important to them.

(this is one of those post that sounds alot like crap. it's just me and my "free association" thing. im not surprised that you dont get it, and so shouldnt you.
it's also one of those post that i know i will regret publishing. so whoever feels offended, remember that im just pissed and drunk.)

good night.


screaming infidelity at 10:48 PM
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