Sunday, January 30, 2005 .

this is dedicated to me.
(but you could read if you're interested)


i was 3 once.
that's as far back as i can remember of my existence.
i can't remember anything from before the time i could speak/walk.
so im guessing my life effectively started from when i was 3.


the first time i hit the swimming pool was probably around then.
floats strapped to my arms and a cute lil' pink one around my waist.
i loved it.
loved the water immediately.


remember my mum telling me that after swimming one day, my mum took me out of the pool to dry me.
just as she turned her head to keep the towels, she heard a splash and i was in the water.
shock of her life.
cos i obviously couldnt swim then.
she had to haul me out of the water again.


i remember learning to ride a bike.
i was probably around 5 then.
wanted to give up many times cos it was taking me days to learn and i was fed up.
good thing i didnt.


around that time was also the first time i went for swimming lessons.
loved it!
haha....no surprise there.
but really, doesnt the water make you feel free?
(im not trying to be cheesey now)
i very well knew that humans can't fly, so floating in the water was a pretty good substitute.
could do all sorts of shit while suspended in the midst of all that diluted chlorine.


i remember primary school.
never really liked it.
but after school was hell fun.
same for secondary school.
hated classes, loved the after school activity.
i guess that's what i am.
im usually more involved in side projects than the main task at hand.
nonsense.


so i was 17 once.
NYJC, dont we all remember?
hated it!
dude. that place sucked.
the only part i truly enjoyed myself was in the early months of post retaining.
met this great guy call Jingyuan (that's how i spelt his name then), then subsequently the rest of the gang.
the rest of JC was fairly enjoyable, rugby and drama and all that.
but heck.


so i was 20 once.
enlisted, shaved and miserable.
what i experienced in the following 1 year was more than what i experienced in the last 5years of my life combined.
it's intense-craziness!
and it led to commissioning!


it's the first thing that i feel i truly earned.
almost failed at numerous counts but still made it.
pride! (thumps chest with fist)


so now im 21.
officially an adult.
hasnt had time to sink in yet.



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